Losing my Religion.

No more performing out of fear
Trying to keep my conscience clear
It all seems so insincere
I’d trade it all to meet You here

[Chorus 1]

I’m losing my religion
I’m losing my religion

I’m losing my religion, and finding something new
I need something different, and different looks like You
I’m losing my religion, and finding something new
‘Cause I need something different, and different looks like You

Losing My Religion

Lauren Daigle

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I haven’t forgotten the look of perplexity on the face of my friend Larry after I took the ‘ganja’ cigar from his hand and inhaled deeply. Larry, myself and several friends had just left one rum shop where we had begun our party night. I had started with my usual drink of rum and water. We were riding in the back of a Toyota pick up truck through the streets of Castries, St. Lucia and were on our way to visit several other rum shops before our money ran out.

The reason for Larry’s perplexity was because I had just shared with him a point of theology that I had recently discovered. I will explain in a minute, but I came to this realization because of a recent experience: A few days earlier I had returned back to the island from Illinois after my father’s death and burial. I returned to finish out my assignment as a Peace Corps volunteer after spending the last six months with my dad before he died of lung cancer. As many of you realize, nothing speaks to a soul like watching the death of a loved one.

During his illness, my dad often remarked, “I don’t know what I did to deserve this”. My discussion with him was based on some insights that I had gained from reading several books including Hal Lindseys, Satan is Alive and Well On Planet Earth and Fulton Ourslers, The Greatest Story Ever Told.

I had always been taught that Jesus died for the sin of the world, but what was being revealed to me was something much more personal. The insight was essentially that Jesus Christ didn’t deserve to die the horrible death that He did, but that He did it willingly for me.

Dear reader, God may have somehow directed you to this page in the midst of your grief and questioning God about your present circumstances. Perhaps you are awakened with worry about the future for you and your loved ones. Perhaps you are concerned about what, if anything, awaits you beyond the grave...

Many of us were taught to sing, “Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so…” and we come to think this means that He will give us whatever we want if we ask Him in faith. So when faced with devastating loss, we are left to question God’s goodness. The truth is that even when we ask God in faith to restore us or a loved one to health, His answer may be, “No”.

This is always hard to accept, but even when our circumstances are not good, God is working all things together for good, to them that He has called and who believe upon His name.(Romans 8:28) If you are reading this, it is because He is calling you and you must respond one way or another to that call (Matthew 22:14).

What I shared with my friend, Larry, in the back of a pick up truck was so oddly out of context with our party night spirit. The insight was this: That even when bad things happen to us, God is always good. Even though at that point, I was not a Christian, I had become more acutely aware that Jesus death and resurrection was evidence of God’s goodness to me.

Get Real

Perhaps you are like I was at that point in my life…very disillusioned with religion. That experience was not good. It had its good points by exposure to the reality of God, and of sin and of eternity. Yet, it did not give me the peace that it promised to provide. I could only hope that I lived a good enough life and did enough penance to allow God to let me into heaven. There is no peace in a ‘hope so’ religion.

You see, even though my experience with religion was not a good one, God used it for good by showing me how empty and unsatisfying religion really is. What I was learning is that God has gone to great lengths to bring you and I into a relationship with Him apart from empty religious expressions of faith.

Perhaps this is why the words of Lauren Daigle’s song resonates with so many seeking souls. Our soul longs for something real, not a charade, not a masquerade, not a performance out of fear, but a genuine faith in the goodness of God. This is what God wants us to see and lay hold of. He wants us to love Him for who He is and not merely for the hope of what He may do for us or the fear of what he may do to us.

As children, it doesn’t take us too many days to learn that many of our playground ‘friends’ only want to hang out with us if they think that there is something that they can get from us. It is a hard day when we come to that realization. (It is an even harder day when we come to learn that we may be treating others the same way).

So, it shouldn’t be too hard for us to identify with God’s emotion when we get all chummy with Him because of what we want Him to do for us instead of loving Him for who He is. The big difference is that God knows our heart better than we do (Psalm 44:21; 69:5; 139:2). He is not deceived by our feigned friendliness towards Him. Yet, He is so good that even when we were His enemies, He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to die in our place (Romans 5:8-10). It is through this knowledge of His goodness that He leads us to repentance (Romans 2:4).

Finding Stability in the Lord

We live in turbulent times and we can expect to suffer loss in this life. More and more young people are dying and suffering because they have been coerced and mandated to receive an experimental drug in order to keep their jobs or maintain their standing. Sadly, this coercion also takes place in many churches where believers are shamed into taking experimental medicines. Ironically, many are preaching that we need to have more religion to set the ship of state aright. While there is an element of truth to this because the scriptures say:

“Righteousness exalts a nation, But sin [is] a reproach to [any] people.”

Proverbs 14:34 (NKJV)

The reality is that you and I do not need more religion…we need to know God. This happens when we listen to what He has already revealed to us about Himself. It is not only the knowledge of God’s Word that is needed. Our true need is to gain the wisdom from His Holy Spirit that applies that knowledge of God’s goodness to each of our hearts.

Wisdom and knowledge will be the stability of your times, [And] the strength of salvation; The fear of the LORD [is] His treasure.

Isaiah 33:6 (NKJV)

There appears to be but one thing coming from man that God delights in and calls it His treasure. It is simply that we respect Him (fear Him) for who He is and that we order our paths in the knowledge that God is always good. In this we find stability for our times.

It is time for us to lose our religion in order to find Him…


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